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This is Blog based around a young person with depression...
When I first became depressed, I didn't even know that I had a problem. The thing about depression is that it stops you having interest in anything, including “simple” every day tasks, and especially in yourself and your own health or needs.
My friends at school saw me becoming withdrawn, but they didn't know what to do any more than I did, so they did nothing. I talked to them less and less about how I was feeling. It was a terrible cycle, because the more I withdrew myself, the less I felt like anybody cared or liked me. And that caused me to withdraw myself even further. In addition to that, I felt invisible within my chaotic home life (which was the main trigger to my depression). I started to use bad coping mechanisms and hurting myself to try to get rid of my negative thought patterns and to distract myself from the mental pain, but again, they only made it worse.
After more than a year, and when things at home had become more bearable, my mum noticed how I was feeling and I was finally referred to a service where I could get help for my mental health problems. Being able to acknowledge that I was ill was a really important part of it for me, because I had found it hard to be taken seriously by my family and friends and needed to admit that I deserved help. In CAMHS I learnt that for me, going out more despite my mental illnesses helped greatly. I found that I could make new friends, and started doing more things with them which distracted me in a positive way, and showed me that in fact, people do like me and want to spend time with me.
This is one of the reasons that I joined Lost Luggage. I wanted to meet others who I knew wouldn't be judgemental and who also cared about improving others mental health and services like I did. I find that helping other people in every day life makes me have a much more positive outlook in general, and its the little things, like small compliments and smiling at people, that can make a great difference and hopefully show others who are struggling that they're not alone!
I'm not fully recovered, but I can definitely see the light at the end of the tunnel now. I'm thankful for the realisation that there is much more to life after having a mental illness like depression.